New years resolutions. Haven't done any yet. The year itself started quite fresh and it's not easy to catch up with all the new things i'm starting. Somehow it starts with the things i was lack of last year, and even if it is uncertain for sure, i believe that everything what happens, happens for a reason. I remember the idea of a book, that we're all creating the life with our thoughts and maybe that's right, cause that's one of the ways i could explain how i do get the work i want or how do i stand in a place i am. And at this point i really need to believe. To believe that everything is for the best and i'm going the way i need to go, to become the real me. Sometimes i feel uncertain, even scared or angry, but if i'd look it from the perspective - i'm happy. Happy to be back into busy life, happy to be closer to my dream, happy to be closer to the people i like, happy to find ways, to create trust, to learn how to talk with the significant ones, happy about decisions i'm making... I don't know how to cook for twelve persons, but i'll do that. I don't know how to write my master's thesis, but i'll do that. I don't know how to set boundaries for the youngsters i'm working with, but i'll do that. And i know i'll learn many new things this year. As i always do. 

Summing up last year experience, i found out that there is no need to worry - last summer really made me realize that. Wherever you go - go with all your heart. Yes, it might be broken. But that doesn't mean it's not worth it. Paris, Copenhagen - traveling is the thing which refreshes me. That's important. Volunteering and people i met there - i feel that one day there will be an end for that. But as long as i stay - i know it's a big part of my life and it really made me grow as a person. And all those people, talkings, hugs and kisses, laugh, cries and tears, seas and vine bottles we drank - it's the joy. The joy i'm most grateful about. 

I promise i'll write my new years resolutions as soon as i'll receive my dream day planner. Thank you for making my dreams come true.