How many steps you need to take to feel like something is changed? Changed the way you didn't plan, changed the way it can not be taken back. Sometimes - hundreds. Walking, walking, walking, and still feeling like the chin is holding back as a hard stone. Sometimes - just a few. Usually these are the ones which hurts the most. Hurts so much that you know - it can never be the same again. But there's also the funny way how God is working. He's creating the plans you'd never believe it would be true one day. Or maybe we're creating them by our thoughts, minds, wishes and whispers in the air while watching falling stars. Who knows who is responsible for the places we're visiting, situations we're living in, people we're meeting, feelings we're feeling...Somehow i think it's our own responsibility. The one which i should take by myself, considering the fact that if i really want something - all the universe is trying to help. Sometimes it happens in really strange ways. Like firstly knowing what i don't want, to realize what i really need. To be down and upset and feel happy afterwards. To be disappointed. To be lost. And than it just starts to click like a puzzle - one by one and it shows the nice picture i was going to, but i thought i had lost my way. So that's how things are happening - always unexpected. Sometimes so unexpected that it's hard to handle. Two things to remember: everything works as it should; nothing is more permanent than temporary. And don't forget to love. Love, love, love as nobody hurts you, love as this is the only thing you know how to do, love like there is no fear of loneliness, love like it's the only choice you have.   

For me - this world is crazy. We were saying "this is the best year ever" and the year comes to an end with full of unfulfilled expectations. Sadly saying "next ones will be the best, for sure!" we were planing our happiness to postpone till the better days come. And only few weeks-days-minutes and somehow it's hard to believe were i'm standing. On the border of the changes, feeling breeze like new fresh air and thinking - isn't it what i was wishing for? As i said - everything is unexpected. My today's happiness doesn't guarantee me any future. But the fact is - live here and now. Tomorrow is the day which may or may not come. So enjoy happiness today. And if it takes you to the brighter tomorrow - say the mantra you know: thank you, thank you, thank you.